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ah. 2009 na pala.

pasukan na bukas..

wala parin ako masiyadong natatapos...

totoo lang wala pa kong layout, render, at yung mga structural details...

totoo lang nag iink parin ako... manually. Nakakaasar kasi parang hindi umuusog yung pace ko kahit na feeling ko ang dami ko ng nagawa pero wala parin. Di parin tapos. Parang may mga enkantong nakikipaglaro sakin.

Hindi ko alam kung pano ko gagawin to lahat hanggang Jan 15 pero para lang safe.. sasabihin ko na sa mga magulang ko na hindi kaya ng mental stability and physical setting ng katawan ko na tapusin yung thesis ko ng hindi nag mumukhang tae ang kinalabasan.

In short.. magbibigay na ko ng application form sa October FUN CLUB. Fun ata kasi.

Ang dami paring butas ng thesis ko, sa sobrang dami nanghihinayang akong ipakita sa jurors kung aabot man ako. Malamang lamang kasi makikita nila yung mga butas at titirahin nila ako hanggang sa mahimatay nalang ako sa kahihiyan.

Ayokong mamatay sa kakahiyan, mas gusto ko mamatay sa giyera o kaya sa barilan para action packed suspense yung memoirs ng buhay ko at hindi puro cameo ng drafting table ko at ang madumi kong kwarto.

Nakatayo ako sa kalye ng thesis at naiinis kung bakit ito pa ang napili ko. Nasabi rin ng Tita Tess ko na bakit pa Arkitektura ang kinuha ko, bakit hindi nalang Culinary arts dahil mahilig ako magluto or kaya Fine arts dahil mahilig akong gumuhit. Pag guhit rin naman ang Arkitektura ah, hindi nga lang SOBRANG masaya gawin kapag hindi ko siya pinapangarap.

Napanuod ko ang isang documentary sa Discovery Channel na tungkol sa mga Asian Dancers. Meron doon isang Pilipinang babae na tanyag sa international ballroom dancing at nanalo ng mga competitions. Galing siyang probinsiya at pinagaral ng magulang sa siyudad, nagbabakasakaling makakakuha siya ng magandang trabaho.

Guess what?

Yung babaeng pilipina, ginamit niya yung tuition fee niya at imbis na mag aral eh nilustay niya ito para matutong sumayaw.

Gumaling siya, sumikat at yumaman. Siya ngayon ay isang tanyag na dance professor sa isang dance studio sa states.

 

....napaisip ka ba? 

Ang sarap gayahin. mmmmm...

One of the bigger complaints I've gotten about the control panel redesign is the lack of accurate hit logging. To that end, I've added back one of the more popular features for patron accounts: viewing your recent visitor traffic logs.

Because of server limitations, you can only view your last 72 hours worth of data, but the data it provides should give you a better idea of where your traffic is coming from.

Check it out in your control panel.

 

[This is some kind of a thesis joke!]

I haven't done anything yet. Kill me now if you think I'm lying but I'm not. Wahaha! and i don't care but actually I care but i just dont give a damn so I still don't care. Wahaha! Malapit na ako magsubmit kay Jagz for the Octoberian Unite! Konti na lang! Wahahaha! Kaso, winelcome ako ni New Year eh! Tas marami siyang bnulong. Marami siyang pinaalala! And i need to make things right. Whaaha! Parang I need to make ammends daw.. wawawa.. so ayan sabi nya..

sabi ni two-face,
"I make my own luck"

sabi ni yay,
"2009 na, you don't have to wait for anything. what happens happen not because it's meant to be but because you did it and that made it 'a' meant to be.

"I know 2008 was neither good nor bad to you. it's just a so-so year. That happens to people who WAIT. they get nothing for nothing. So why wait, if you can't get anything in return? Why give if you're not sure about it? Why wait? Look what it's done to you! Stuck and stubborn! Move your ass!!! Start doing it NOW!! Party all you can when it's done!!!

"If 2007 was bad to you, that's because you made it bad to you. You branded it that way! But come to think of it, 2007 was not so bad. You were so blind to see the positive image it was trying to convey to you because you were dwelling in what it's giving you--and not what it's making you.

"So stop whining, stop wasting time and stop waiting!

"Just make your own luck! Go find a way to finish school on your own and at your best. MAKE YOUR OWN LIFE!

"it's not about celebrating Christmases and New Years Day alone next time. What matters is, you've got a life, you're holding it together and you're the Boss."

"Stop thinking you're going to be alone next time. Stop thinking no one's going to be there for you! Stop doing things that say 'goodbye'! Just be YOU and everything will be alright!.

"Go get a life!"

WEEEE!!

2009, I'm welcoming you with a big bang boom! WOOH! Let's make our life juicy and sweet! (bwahahah)

 

Years ago, i wrote an entry titled "AN INTERVIEW WITH THE NINJA".. and i had fun reading it again today. And since i missed my ninja strider hiryu..

 

here's

 

AN INTERVIEW WITH THE NINJA (part 2):

 

strider: so.. long time no see.

lu: yeah. three years and 9 months to be exact.

strider: i've read our previous interview.

lu: and?

strider: you were SO mushy back then.

lu: and i'm not right now?

strider: good point. so.. you've got someone now, huh?

lu: um.. yeah. hehe.

 

strider *whispers*: teka, ba't ba ako nag e-english?

lu: eh conyo naman tayo eh, ok lang kahit ano.

 

strider: pansin ko lang, ang innocente mo pa dati.

lu: sori naman kung ang sama ko nang tao ngayon.

 

strider: so.. i guess you're not so torpe anymore now, aren't you?

lu: people change.

strider: did you really?

lu: yeah, i guess. or maybe, i just wasn't as true to myself back then as i am now.

 

strider: so pano na yung dati?

lu: hahah.. yung crush ko since third year? wala na yun.. i'm so over it.

strider: old news na ba?

lu: hehe. yeah.. and meron na din siya eh, so i wish them both the best.

strider: good thing hindi ka umamin sa kanya noh?

lu: haha, well.. i'm not that stupid. and besides, "being close to the one you love is one of the privileges of being a friend..", right?

strider: you've been watching too much anime.

lu: wala na nga eh. busy ko na ngayon sobra.

strider: well, at least, you tried diba?

lu: yeah, at least.

 

strider: i see you're still wearing your mask.

lu: i take it off for some people.

strider: mahina na genjutsu mo.. alam mo yun?

lu: alam ko. pero okay lang yun. nakakatamad na din kasi minsan.

strider: sus, nagkaroon ka lang, ang lakas na ng loob mo. ingat ka pa rin tsong.

lu: sabi ko naman sayo, pag nagkaroon ako.. nothing else will matter right?

strider: sheesh. ang mushy mo talaga.

 

strider: so.. are you happy?

lu: ^_^

strider: talaga?

lu: ^_____^

strider: sure?

lu: taena can't you see my face?

*lui tries to upak strider.. whoosh!*

*strider makes ilag.. whoosh!*

...

strider: so.. kayo na?

lu: i don't think this would be the right place to talk about this..

strider: kaya ka nga nagbblog eh.

lu: ...

strider: so.. kayo na?

lu: ...

strider: silence means yes..

lu: ang corny mo gagu.

strider: para namang magkaibang tao tayo noh? bi-polar..

lu: fine fine. whatever you say.

 

strider: don't you think it was too fast? too soon?

lu: may expiration date daw eh, sabi ni kat. kaya grab the opportunity na agad. hahaha.

strider: you're laughing.

lu: and?

strider: wala lang.

 

strider: i remember you saying, "when it comes, it COMES..diba?"

lu: the motto of my life.

strider: as always.

lu: sabi sayo may future tayo eh.

strider: yeah.. 21 years late.

lu: my life's complicated, alam mo naman yun eh.

strider: sabi ko nga.

 

strider: so, this it really it, huh?

lu: hopefully, yeah.

strider: ah. well, time will tell.

lu: yup. it will tell. and for the moment, i'm just happy with the way things are.

strider: good chioce.

lu: sabi s'yo ok mging torpe eh!

strider: gagu! pasalamat ka may pumatol pa sayo!

lu: kapal ng mukha mo.

strider: well, i guess all i have to say is.. good luck sayo. alagaan mo siya ng mabuti, pero wag mo naman i-spoil.

lu: i know.. as long as lipay ming duha, its all good.

strider: pffft.. *chuckle*

lu: what?

strider: you're right. you didn't change.

lu: bakit?

strider: hopeless romantic ka pa rin.

lu: as always.

 

strider: hehe.. cge, 4:20am na. mag thesis ka na. magagalit siya pag di mo natapos plans mo tonight.

lu: hehe.. okay. nice talking to you again strider.

strider: me too. see you in 3 years?

lu: parang di tayo magkasama everyday diba?

strider: sabi ko nga.

lu: *grin*

strider: bye.

 

*swish* *poof* *disappear*

 

The End.

..kalalakihan mo nalang yan.. di mo napapansin yung kinakainisan mo ke papa nag-grow narin sayo..

 

 

 

 

 

yeah.. happy holidays..

Currently listening to: Decode - Paramore
Currently feeling: crushed

12.15.2008.

 

*chuckle*

 

It wasn't THAT memorable. or maybe it was. What was only barely a week ago felt much longer. hehehe. It's either time flies so fast, or it was just.. fast. Period.

Call it too early, (or too late for some people) but for me, i'm just glad things turned out the way they did. And I'm thankful for everyone who directly (yes, i'm talking about two squealing female bestfriends of mine) or indirectly (fate, destiny, the internet..) led me to this.

 

Whatever the reason was, I guess what's important is that, well.. I'm happy. We're happy.

It's my first time into this and I don't really know how it works.. Sue my geeky-boyscout background who believes in all things good and wonderful for that. But regardless of experience, I'm sure things will unfold in their own time.

 

...

 

I'm not really scared, but maybe I am a little bit tense.

Scared but at the same time curious about things i've yet to discover, things that I've always dreamed about..

Experiences that i've yet to have, but are as reminiscent as sunny days and summer showers during the days of my youth..

An unknown happiness that's all too familiar.

...

 

Could it be?

The one that's oftenly given, but seldom returned?

 

Could it be?

That weird sense of immense satisfaction.. fluttering.. butterflies?

 

...

 

 

I can't be so sure, but three things are for certain:

 

First, I am not a vampire.

Second, there's this part of me, and I don't know how dominant this part might be, who's scared, but just can't help but look into those beautiful eyes..

and Third,

 

I think I'm unconditionally and irrevocably falling in love.

 

...

 

^____^

 

 

P.S. - it's cheesy, i know. hehe. Merry Christmas everyone.

Currently feeling: hihihi

I've been really angsty lately. (Angsty in a let's-go-commit-suicide way) But still I'm fighting tooth and nail to stay stuck in my drafting board while other people bask in the glow of the holidays. Oh joy.

I remembered this one sentence from a story I read way back then. If I could remember it went on like this...

"I thought you like perfection. How come you never finish the things you have done?" said the woman. The man unfazed by her incredulity answered in a precise tone that shattered her doubt. "Because then, I could return and finally finish them."

bah... I hear the voices inside my head get louder and louder everytime I wake up. Is this how convicts feel when they're about to take their death sentence? Knowing you only have a few days left and still you can't help but fall into the dark temptation that dying is probably easier than failure.

Ha ha.. *slaps self*

I finally found the story I'd been searching for... it's been 5 years since I last read it and I still feel the same ache inside my chest when I read it. I love the feel of it ha ha..

"I will eat a pomegranate a day, two hundred seeds and fifty dreams, I will drink my pain and eat my heart, everyday. The red liquid will be my blood, the seeds will be my mind. I will eat them up, two hundred times for all those years every time, and when I finally give up, I will eat again." (excerpt from Pomegranate)

I also found other stuff that'll keep me alive for a day or two. I'll probably be eating these words instead and a couple of relaxing pills to get me through this week. What happens will happen, fail or pass I'm no superman, so I'll just do what I can do. 

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." -Steve Jobs

"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity." - Henry Van Dyke

“I cannot promise very much. I give you the images I know. Lie still with me and watch. We laugh and we touch. I promise you love. Time will not take that away.” -Anne Sexton

Some people are so afraid to die that they never begin to live. -Henry Van Dyke